A dream I’d #2

Finally I can type this dream… I’d this dream couple of days ago while I was taking a nap. First off I wanna wish every one Happy Easter! I hope we all had a good day! Back to this dream. I got home from work on Thursday around 4. I been working a busy schedule this week for work. Working 14 days straight and doing doubles can leave you tired. While I was taking my nap, watching forensic science on netflix I fell asleep. In my dream I was messing with my bike back tire. In the dream it was flat and I was squeezing it and etc but that’s in the dream. The very next day, I was going home from work on my bike. Those of you who don’t know I ride my bike day and night to work unless someone offers me a ride with is rare. When I got closer to my house my bike tire started to mess up. It got so bad I was force to get off my bike and walk the rest of the way home. Both of my tires still had air but I didn’t realize I was dragging the back tire on the sidewalk because I had my music on. Before I could turn on my street I notice my bike tire was flat and I could tell why it gotten flat. I was a little mad that it had to happen on this day because I had plans to bike ride later that night. Friday evening while I was smoking my vape, I randomly went to the bike and started to mess with my bike tire to get a better idea of why it was acting up today. Soon as I touch the tire, the memory of my dream had pop in my head. It was weird at first like oh shit I had a dream about this shit yesterday and I was a little shock. Dreams in my life had came true before but it always took a while for it to happen in real life. This dream happen immediately after I had it. My bike still broke and I’ll just buy a road bike now… Will be the third one I bought so far.

Always remember your dreams. You’ll never know when they will come true. Oh, if you’re curious of what happen to my bike it look like the wheel was bent like it got hit by a vehicle or something but I guess I’ll never know.

A letter I sent to a friend.

This is a letter I sent to a close friend of mines because she has been down lately and this is what I wrote.

Keya… I found it pretty cool that we been friends for a long time and you’ll always be my number one friend. I watch how you grow into a beautiful woman. Everything about you is perfect in my opinion and I’ll never judge you for the things you do in life. I could tell when I visit you at your job, those little kids love you even those they was probably annoying lol. I could just tell you bring some much joy to people lives and have I mentioned that you wonderful mother? I might not know everything about your life but I do know you went through alot but you always came back on top no matter what the obstacles was. I also want you to remember that I’ve allot of love for you and also many more people have love for you. I always enjoy watching your snaps because it’s so honest and funny ya know? You be having a good time too. Thanks to you there are so many restaurants I wanna visit and man you are beautiful, I know I say that alot and I feel like you going to get tired of me saying that lol but I’m going to keep saying it because it’s true. I feel like you’ve been down lately because of the words you use toward me. I do hope everything is okay and just know I’m here for ya and I hope you’re healing fast. I love you and I hope this letter cheer you up. Love Johnathan Pugh

I woke up with a text from her saying thank you so much and that it made her day. She also save it. I ask why she save it and she told when ever I’m feeling down, I’ll go back to this message and read it over and over. That made my day because I was able to make someone happy using my own words from the heart. I feel like if you got the words to make anyone day… Do It!

Random Girl

Some words I thought of while I and my best friend was talking about the people we like or notice. I was telling her that there this girl at work I’d notice when I first started working there. I notice this beautiful woman who was always in this room when I went to lock the doors in the back of the health center… it honestly was a rehab for the old residents or random people when they need to get better but I still call it the health center. The first few times I saw her I didn’t speak but I wish I should. A few months in I started to wave and she ends up speaking to me first. We talk little when we saw each other in the halls way and I came to terms that I like her. She slowly grew on me and I started liking her more and more but didn’t say nothing, didn’t do nothing, didn’t even show nothing but I should have. When I finally build up the courage to make a move. I was going to buy her some flowers and have them sent to her when she works.  But I sadly didn’t know her scheduled because it was different every week. I ask one of her co-workers that she work with sometimes and I ask her when did her friend work? she asks why? I said I wanted to buy her flowers. She gave me a crazy look and said don’t do that!! I ask why? because she got a boyfriend couple of weeks ago and she is happy. She also said you waited too late. Like she really did like you but you never ask her out. I was sad for a few days after that. I even try to avoid her at times but fail. A few months later her shift got changed to 3 to 11. This only means I saw her more throughout the day. Few days after that she was able to convince me to give her my number. I honestly didn’t expect her to call me or even text. She doesn’t text me but she calls all the time which I don’t mind. At first, I was a little uneasy because she had a boyfriend and it just didn’t felt right talking to her for hours and hours during work or even when she does a double she calls when I’m home. She never calls me when she home which is understandable. But don’t you hate that? that one person you wanted but never got because you were so shy. You hate the fact that ya’ll is talking allot but not together, on her breaks she calls you to come meet her and she spend every single break with you, even when you on break she knows and calls to hang. That’s what happens when you don’t speak up, never let the opportunity slip away when you have a chance at something. Am I going to continue to talk to her? Yes, I’m lol… sucks eh? we both agree to be cool friends or best friends. She believes since we have the same birthday we should be connected forever and yes we have the same birthday just she three years older than me. I also learn just because you like someone doesn’t mean you can’t see them as friends… No, I don’t plan on waiting for her to be single but I’ll always be there for her ya know? I remember she asks me what should she get for her boyfriend for V-day… I told her to get him what he likes. She said she didn’t know. I smile and think to myself that this going to be a long ride. I hope everyone is doing well out there and remember, go for what you like because somethings it won’t be there forever.

Just a dream I had

One day I travel back to St.Petersburg Fl just to check up on friends and family, I stayed for about 3 days at least so I can see everybody I love, or even hang with. But one night as I drive down P.park road just listening to music and enjoying my last night here for a while, I see a pretty young lady that I knew back in middle school, but we still keep in touch today. I found it odd that she was walking this late at night, So I stop and ask her what’s going on, Why you out here so late? She replies I just walking back home, I miss the city bus. I ask her how far is home? and why didn’t you ask for a ride from your friends or family? She replies that they all busy, which I understand. So I offer her a ride and she got in, she asks me where I was going? I told her, I’m going to st.pete beach, just to feel the nice sand on my feet before I head back to Orlando. She said that was cool and sound lovely on a night like this. But she also asks me how’s you and your girlfriend?(DON’T HAVE ONE IN REAL LIFE) all that advice I gave you, I hope you use it. I told her I did, and we’re well, just taking it slow that’s all. She ask why she not with you? I said she wanted to spend time with her friends and family. Well at least you understand her? don’t you? I do? why you ask? Just asking? even though we don’t see each other like that, but I do understand another Virgo. I crack a smile, maybe so, but we all can be different don’t you think? True, but let me ask you a question? since your girlfriend is out with her friends and you going to the beach alone. How about I join you? just friends. I’m sure you don’t wanna spend your last night here alone all by yourself on the beach at midnight.  Maybe true, but you don’t have any beach clothes to wear, Am I right? No, you’re wrong. I got some, I went to the pool today, they about dry. Okay, but the bathroom going to be close, how you going to change? She reply I’ll wait until you get out the car and change. May I do that or that a problem? Me no no, gone head. I won’t look. As I drive the rest of the way to the beach and we just talk and talk about life and other people and relationship problems. As we approach the beach, and she started changing her clothes. We started walking on the sand looking at stars and the bright moonlight that lite up the whole sky, we walk for hours just talking. As it comes to an end, she said, you are such a good guy, I’m not even dating you and you’re so nice to me? I wonder why? My reply was I’m just nice and I try to help as many people the best way I can even if I don’t have nothing to offer. She replies you offer your soul and respect to people which make you a good guy. Maybe one day you’ll find the right girl for you, just try harder in life is the best advice I can give you at the moment. I reply that goes the same for you. I notice your Facebook status and etc. everything going to be okay in your life. Just believe. Is that why you wear that believe bracelet all the time? Yes. but it can mean many more, as I crack a smile. But I’ll take you home now. before she went in the house, she gave me a kiss on the cheek and said thank for the wonderful night. I hope your girlfriend see what she really have and I hope she doesn’t lose you. Good night Johnathan talk to ya soon. As I wake up with my damn neighbor mowing his yard…

Today 2/11

Just a little updated on my life at the moment… It’s going okay for now… My daughter broke her car seat(Again) so I had to buy a new one, that little girl is getting stronger lol… Her mother tells me she just be pulling on it and etc like how hard she be pulling it for it to break. But I think she’ll like her new one I hope, I’m just wondering how long it’s going to last. My crush call me drunk yesterday when she got to the bar… So told me she haven’t really gotten over her ex and she been single for a year now which was new to me( let me remind you I don’t really know her like that either). That was a low blow to me… like man… but i understand why she didn’t talk to me that much or wanted to hang when I ask… we did once but that was all… so now I’m debating if I should just move on ya know? there no point for me to keep liking her when there is a possibility that she will date her ex again. So I’m just going to slowly talk less to her day by day. We was planing on going to see Black Panther on Friday but I may pass and just go with the homies or my best-friend . My two brothers both had their baby 2 days apart which is cool( more kids to spoil lol). I’m happy that my daughter is a big Cousin now. I just told them both is to be a good father and be there for them no matter what. One brother had a son and one had a daughter( finally another girl in the family). I haven’t seen my mother for the past 2 or 3 weeks… her so call boyfriend( who I don’t like) was looking for her today but that’s not my business tho… try to help her and you’ll end up in jail. Job still the same… hopefully that raise was true which I doubt. Oh yeah, it was my great grandmother birthday yesterday. I found it cool my little Niece and great grandma have the same birthday. Other then that life is going smoothly at the moment. I hope everyone who reading this is having a great day! Much love!

 

It been awhile eh?

First off, I wanna say I hope everyone is having a good year so far… Mines is going okay so far…well I wouldn’t say that but for now everything is good. I caught the Flu in the beginning of the year and that shit was depressing… Like I never gotten the flu and I wouldn’t want to have it again. Had it for five days, then I had a little cough for like 2 week after the flu was over and that shit was annoying. hopefully that’s the only time I get sick. Work is going well also. My crush probably  notice me. We talk on the phone last night for like an hour and couple of minutes until her dog piss on the floor, but it was nice tho. Also, my job is giving me and my co-workers a raise which is good and it’s about time lol. Oh yeah, I bought this game call The Hunter: call of the wild… it’s a fun game and was worth the $40 bucks I spent… I feel like I grew more patient in life because of this game and it’s so relaxing. It’s just one of those chills game where you don’t have to try hard at anything. Just go around and hunt animals. I also learn different stuff from the game as well. My daughter is getting bigger, she broke her new car seat I bought couple of months ago and she can now hold a conversation on the phone/video with me. Still can’t believe she growing fast and she only two. I bought her more books to read because even now she like books with is cool with me. my friends and family is also well… Today is my good homeboy birthday today and he turn 25. Can’t believe most of us going to be 30 soon and it felt like yesterday we was chilling at the park after high school. Oh, my little brother finally got a job and he having a baby girl next month( hopefully he get out my place soon lol). But life is going well for now, I feel like something going to come up. Either way I hope you enjoy this read and yes I need to type more… been slacking.

Random dream I had.

One day I travel back to St.Petersburg Fl just to check up on friends and family, I stayed for about 3 days at least, so I can see everybody I love, or even hang with. But one night as I drive down the pinlleas county road just listening to music and enjoying my last night here for a while. I see a pretty young lady that I knew back in middle school, but we still kept in touch to this day. I found it odd that she was walking this late at night, So I stop and ask her what’s going on, Why you out here so late? She replies: I just walking back home, I miss the city bus. I ask her how far is home? and why didn’t you ask for a ride from your friends or family? She replies they all busy, which I understand. So I offer her a ride and she got in, she ask me where was I going? I told her, I’m going to st.pete beach, just to feel the nice sand on my feet before I head back to Orlando. She said that was cool and sound lovely on a night like this. But she also asks me how’s you and your girlfriend?( I don’t have a girlfriend in real life). All that advice I gave you, I hope you use it. I told her I did, and we’re well, just taking it slow that’s all. She ask why she not with you? I said she wanted to spend time with her friends and etc. Well at least you understand her? don’t you? I do? why you ask? Just asking? even though we don’t see each other like that, but I do understand another Virgo. Me crack a smile, maybe so, but we all can be different don’t you think? True, but let me ask you a question? since your girlfriend is out with her friends and you going to the beach alone. How about I join you? I’m sure you don’t wanna spend your last night here alone all by yourself on the beach at midnight.  Maybe true, but you don’t have beach clothes to wear, Am I right? No, I got some, I went to the pool today, they about dry, But the bathroom going to be close, how you going to change? She reply I’ll wait until you get out the car and change. May I do that or that a problem? Me no no, gone head. I won’t look. As I drive the rest of the way to the beach and we just talk and talk about life and other people and relationship problems. As we approach the beach while she changing. We start walking on the sand looking at stars and the bright moonlight that lite up the whole sky, we walk for hours just talking. As it comes to an end, she said, you are such a good guy, I’m not even dating you. You so nice to me? I wonder why? My reply was I’m just nice and I try to help as many people the best way I can even if I don’t have nothing to offer. She reply, you offer your soul and respect to people which make you a good guy. Maybe one day you’ll find the right girl for you, just try harder in life is the best advice I can give you at the moment. I reply that go the same for you. I notice your Facebook status and etc. everything going to be okay in your life. Just believe. Is that why you wear that believe bracelet all the time? Yes. but it can mean many more, as I crack a smile. But I’ll take you home now. before she went in the house, she gave me a kiss on the cheek, and said thank for the wonderful night. I hope your girlfriend see what she really have and I hope she don’t lose you. Good night Johnathan talk to ya soon. As I wake up with the sun in my eyes because my little brother opens the window but he made up for it because I saw a bag of weed next to my face so hey I’m not going to compline.

Early morning question

You see the title, an early morning question. One of my home girls text me this morning and ask how do I deal with a gamer? I ask her what do you mean? She text back an hour later and said I’ve been talking to this guy for 2 months and he a hardcore gamer kinda like you but I know you do others things… Which is true. So I gave her my opinion. All the girls I dated was cool with me playing games. She ask why? I said simple I was always there and home. She text back and said what do you mean by that?

I was home all the time, if I wasn’t home gaming my life away I was at the gym, the park/beach, taking nice walks in the middle of the night and hanging with the homies playing video games like T7 or Naruto, killing instant and work. Plus they was happy that I was home most of the time unlike other guys who go clubbing or always on the streets with their homies and etc. 

Then she ask me what about the t.v time? I told her they usually sit there and watch me play, definitely if its a story mode game( they always saw it like a mini movie or show) and if I’m too tired to play. They will learn how to use my system and turn on Netflix or buy a movie from the Xbox store( which I didn’t mind) and I will sit there and watch it with them until we both tap out. I told her talking to a gamer can be fun but not all of them is good ya know? And that is up to you if you wanna keep trying or not. We all different in our own little way. Date us or not just know we going to catch up on allot of t.v shows lol. I might even write how do I feel being a gamer one day by the way have a great day 😊.

Today 11/28

Like the title, today… Today is a drag to me, woke up a lil to early, mouth taste funny, muscles hurt, little back pain and more. Wash my face, spoken to my younger brother ( who crashing with me). Afternoon came, got high and watch some dragon Ball Z and a Netflix show call Glitch which is amazing. Now I’m at work chilling. I finish season 2 of Glitch. Spoken to one of my friends who needs a new phone. I did all my security work early so I can relax and now I’m waiting to go on patroll so I can get some orange juice because I’m thirsty like a cow. I’m okay just encase you asking but I’m thinking about allot of things lately. I been wanting more money, spending more time with my daughter, try to stay in good contact with my friends and probably just maybe looking for a woman to chat/spend with with( probably because I been lonely lately. That’s okay thought, sometimes you need to spend time to yourself because we all need some inner peace no matter who you is. You should always stay positive no matter what because someone maybe feeling worst then you…. I felt back for an old child hood friend why? She has sex for money and etc. I told her you better stop doing that before you catch something. She reply and said I know I just hope I don’t catch anything but when you need money and a place to live ( definitely when it’s cold) and that shit is so sad man and she don’t have family or close friends. She also lives a bad life but hey that none of my business. So I’m thankful I don’t live like her because I can’t image doing stuff like that. I should really write more but thank you for reading and I hope you have a great day.

Lost Friendship

Tell me, if I tell you a story about a lost friendship, would you read it? or will you? Only you can answer this question. I feel like I lost a lot of friends over the years and we never really speak unless we need each other help or just to comment a status but when you go out your way and hang with a person all day long, pay their rent, bought food for their place so they won’t go hungry and show them memoirs they had as a kid growing up. I feel like this person owe me allot but she really doesn’t, why? because I wanted to do those things, I wanted to make her smile and I wanted to her to be happy for a change. She struggle allot in life and do things that she should do to survive in this lonely world, I not going to tag any names or even mention her, but I do wish her the best, even if she hates me or dislike me because some person who jealous of me, I can not control that. Only thing I can do is pray to god and hope we speak again if we allow it. I have faith in my lord and always will. Looking back on friendship make me wonder how life will be if I had the same old friends in high school? eh? confusing, some of them dead, some of the parents and some just nowhere to be found ya know? but I wish and pray that everyone has a blessed day even my family I pray for and I hardly speak to them but overall, that’s how life is, you help who you can and hope they do the same for you one day. I really do things in my life get better, I been mopping around for the past 2 days and I don’t know why but that’ll change starting tomorrow. Not one of my best notes like I use to do in the past but I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoy typing it, even if it didn’t make sense to you. I really hope this one person read it because of she the one that made me think of these things. Good night and have a blessed one, by King Johnathan F. Pugh.