I was instilled to believe I’m forever to be alone. Me against the world no hero just me. I tell my kids I don’t want them to take care of me when they are older. I rather die than to depend on them. I want them to live and that’s enough to make me happy. It hurt them for me to tell them that but I don’t want to depend on them no more than I am now. I was born to give them the life to live. So when I know for sure they can do well on their own. God can take my life. Im done.They are my purpose & my reason for living.